08/20/17 - Reconnecting

Hello, my small children!

     So, my feelings about Andy have, i'm pretty sure, always been there. Since he moved here, I've always had real feelings for him. His brown hair, his little smile, his gorgeous eyes. He's got the most beautiful eyes, and his laugh is so beautiful. When I make him laugh, it sparks happiness and I can't help but admire him. 

     But, when he was visiting his family, he started getting distance and stopped facetiming me. My heart was seriously hurting, he was someone I admired and liked so deeply and to have him not talking to me made me sad. So we went a week without talking to see if he'd text me, and he didn't. So I texted him and was like 'yo fam you'll get your hoodie back on the first day of school,' but like i was more bland than that. He was like, yo sound mad. DUH BINCH I'M MAD, YOU HAVEN'T TEXTED ME IN A FEW WEEKS. And like he explained that he was distancing himself because he didn't want to get attached to me because I'm moving WHOOPS. But like long distance :( Why didn't he? 

       My heart was absolutely shattered because (lowkey pretty sure i'm in love with this kid) I like him. Andy is one of the few people that I can talk to and just calm down from speaking to him. He doesn't even know that. I'll be crying and he'd help me without even realizing it. But on Friday, I was crying my eyes out and I needed to text him. I needed to calm down, he was the only one I could think of. We talked in 6th period on Friday and he made me laugh and it was just like how we were before he cut us off.

     I did what any emotional piece of crap would do and texted him. I said exactly this, "hey, i know you're probably gonna be like 'why is she texting me' and i know you really don't want to talk to me anymore but my night has been really crappy and you always made my nights and days better so i just did what i thought was best, even though it may not be" 

     He responded with "Honestly I was thinking today in history, we actually talked and i remembered why we were such good friends" and I got so happy. I missed this kid with a passion and hadn't talked to him in like a month so hearing that, really improved my state of being.

     And I really like this kid and his deep green eyes that has little slits of blue in them. I like looking in his eyes and just seeing the way they dilate and shine. He's truly a beautiful person.

     WATCH THIS BACKFIRE ON ME AND I'M GONNA END UP CATCHING MORE FEELINGS FOR ANDY WHEN I SAID I WOULD LOSE THEM INSTEAD OF GAIN THEM. WHOOPS YIKE