08/25/17 - Week of Bloody Mary

Week of Bloody Mary

     So the title is a metaphor for a period. Sorry to those i made uncomfortable just by saying the word. Ya know what? No, i'm not. It shouldn't be gross but that's a whole other thing. We're here to talk about my week! 

     So, this week i've started to drink more water and take Hair-Skin-Nail vitamins, trying to take better care of myself, ya know? On Sunday, the whole taking care of myself kick started, haha!! On Tuesday, I was in 6th period, and I was laughing, a little too hard maybe? And I slid back and my head banged on the counter behind me. Andy was laughing, and my friend, Demi, were laughing at me really hard. And so, Demi says, "I thought you hit your head," and I told her I did, and she laughed harder. Then when I was leaving to go to my 7th period, I was talking to Andy and here's a seating chart. 

     So I had to step over Demi's desk (Everyone but D., Andy, and I were left in the class) to get out of the way. So I stood on it with two feet and hopped off with two feet, it took a second but my knees collapsed and I fell to my knees, I started laughing hysterically because Andy was laughing at me and my anxiety kinda was gonna beat me up if I didn't laugh it off. Laughter is the best form of relieving anxiety(i'm lying). Since that day, Andy continuously tells me "don't go over it," and i was so done, I shouldn't have sent the text, lmaoooo. 

     So, my 1st period has actually become just a free period because the computers in the school NEVER load which means having to do no work. Today, Friday, in 1st period, Me, Trevor E. and Trevor L. all played UNO together. I beat them once and then Abby came into the game and I beat them two more times. Master of UNO, right here ;) Battle me, you'll lose <3

     I feel you all should have a proper introduction to all the people that are going to mention in this blog. (All names are not their actual name, they're changed for privacy reasons)

Melissa - No longer my friend, she probably hates me, I don't hold grudges anymore so...

Andy - Ex-Crush, funny, Best friend

Jamie - Old friend, don't really talk anymore, beautiful, smart

Mr. Coin - My B. and P. Finance class teacher, creepy, says dirty things to students

Mr. Je - My geometry teacher

Delaney - (You guys know her) Has a large slime account, funny, beautiful, talented

Tessa - (you also know her) has a slime account, funny, super pretty, smart

Mark - (I think you may know him) has a repost satisfy account, funny, master at tos

Marie - (Maybe her too?) Has a slime account, super nice, incredibly pretty, hilarious

Valerie - (Her too??) Has a nail, makeup, and slime account, beautiful, and smart

Kristy - Softball player, german, super pretty, and soooo friendly

Cameron - Golden heart, annoying sometimes, funny too

Luka - cheerleader, super funny, handsome

Devin - frickboy, funny, playful

Sally - frickgirl, rude, eh

Demi - best frand, funny, super pretty, known her since 7th grade

Chase - Rude, frickboy, stupid

Trevor - Kind, funny, fashionable

Eve - My long distance best friend, super beautiful, hilarious

     More people will be added but as of right now, this is who's on here!

      So Mr. Je and Mr. Coin really set off my social and normal anxiety, they point me out in class and make me answer things that i know i'm wrong about. It makes me so uncomfortable, I make mistakes but I hate saying them out loud because people laugh. And really, they shouldn't be laughing because they make mistakes too but still. >:( 

    Okay, I gotta go, It's friday, I'm gonna go see if my group wants to go play TOS! Love you all! 

                                                                 See you soon!

                                                                                       Olivia!

08/20/17 - Reconnecting

Hello, my small children!

     So, my feelings about Andy have, i'm pretty sure, always been there. Since he moved here, I've always had real feelings for him. His brown hair, his little smile, his gorgeous eyes. He's got the most beautiful eyes, and his laugh is so beautiful. When I make him laugh, it sparks happiness and I can't help but admire him. 

     But, when he was visiting his family, he started getting distance and stopped facetiming me. My heart was seriously hurting, he was someone I admired and liked so deeply and to have him not talking to me made me sad. So we went a week without talking to see if he'd text me, and he didn't. So I texted him and was like 'yo fam you'll get your hoodie back on the first day of school,' but like i was more bland than that. He was like, yo sound mad. DUH BINCH I'M MAD, YOU HAVEN'T TEXTED ME IN A FEW WEEKS. And like he explained that he was distancing himself because he didn't want to get attached to me because I'm moving WHOOPS. But like long distance :( Why didn't he? 

       My heart was absolutely shattered because (lowkey pretty sure i'm in love with this kid) I like him. Andy is one of the few people that I can talk to and just calm down from speaking to him. He doesn't even know that. I'll be crying and he'd help me without even realizing it. But on Friday, I was crying my eyes out and I needed to text him. I needed to calm down, he was the only one I could think of. We talked in 6th period on Friday and he made me laugh and it was just like how we were before he cut us off.

     I did what any emotional piece of crap would do and texted him. I said exactly this, "hey, i know you're probably gonna be like 'why is she texting me' and i know you really don't want to talk to me anymore but my night has been really crappy and you always made my nights and days better so i just did what i thought was best, even though it may not be" 

     He responded with "Honestly I was thinking today in history, we actually talked and i remembered why we were such good friends" and I got so happy. I missed this kid with a passion and hadn't talked to him in like a month so hearing that, really improved my state of being.

     And I really like this kid and his deep green eyes that has little slits of blue in them. I like looking in his eyes and just seeing the way they dilate and shine. He's truly a beautiful person.

     WATCH THIS BACKFIRE ON ME AND I'M GONNA END UP CATCHING MORE FEELINGS FOR ANDY WHEN I SAID I WOULD LOSE THEM INSTEAD OF GAIN THEM. WHOOPS YIKE

08/17/17 - First Post!

Hello, I'm Via!

     So, it's only Thursday, and I have plenty to speak about. Well, not 'plenty', I'm being dramatic, but hey! That's me!

     Let's start with late April, early May because this is background information you'll need friendos. So there's this boy, we'll call him Andy, I liked so deeply. I planned to get closer to him, as any sane person would do with their crush. Eventually, my friends convinced me to tell him how I felt, and so i sent the long message confessing my looovvvveeee(sarcasm, i mean my admiration of him) for him. It took him a total of 2 hours and 35 minutes to text back and tell me that he feels the same way about me! Also, he said that he needed time to think about us. 

     I gave Andy the time, plenty of it, actually. One day my friend, we'll call her Jamie, invited me and Andy out to go to the bowling alley near us. It was so amazing, he is such a good and fun person. I should be bashing him, but I can't. Anywhooooo. At the bowling alley, we, obviously, bowled, ate, and took photos in the photo booth. One of the pictures, Jamie and I were kissing Andy's cheeks and he got so extremely bright red. It's such a cute photo, honestly. Maybe I'll post it later :) Who knows. 

     After we got done bowling, we played in the arcade waiting on our rides. Jamie left first and my mom got there next but I didn't want to leave Andy alone in the arcade so I texted my mom I'd be out when his mom got there. She was cool about it, so Andy and I both sat on the gaming motorcycles and talked, flirted, and laughed. I'm such an awkward person but boy, it's so easy to talk to him. 

     When his mom got there, I grabbed the box of my pizza and packed up my bag to go to my moms car. I turned around and bam, there was Andy, reaching out to hug me. I literally panicked. I'm so awkward, I had a HUGE box of pizza in my hand and he's over here trying to HUG ME? Not that I was complaining, I mean, I liked the boy! 

     So I hugged him and we went our separate ways. Then we got closer in school too. In 6th period, he used to sit a little ways away from me and he moved his seat right next to me, our legs touching. We were always touching in some way( Don't take that the wrong way, ya pervs!). Then when Early June rolled around he had to go visit family for the whole summer. So all we really had was text, when he wasn't out doing something where he had no reception, and facetime. So during the summer we slowly started to drift apart, sadly. When late July came around, I found out where I was moving and when. I didn't want to tell him because it would push us right back to square one and i knew it. But I decided to tell him. When I did, we grew even more apart. 

     When I talked to him about him rarely texting me, or facetiming me, he chose to end it and I had to agree because his happiness is very important. And if that meant I was to be kicked out of his life, then so be it. Jamie and Andy were like best friends and she stopped talking to me too. ALSO LAST WEEK AND TODAY HE WORE MY HOODIE. THE HOODIE I GAVE HIM SO WE'D BE FAIR ON THE HOODIE GAME. HE WORE IT TO SCHOOL.I GAVE HIM HIS HOODIE BACK. GIVE ME MINE.

     So, last week, I overheard a friend of mine that sits directly behind me in Geometry,we'll call her Melissa(If you're from honeybun, you know her as Jane!), talking about how her, Andy, Jamie, and Jamie's boyfriend were going on a double date. I didn't really think anything of it, cause there's plenty of Andy's in my school and I figured it wasn't the one I liked. 
     Sure enough on the day she said the double date was going to happen, they posted on instagram and it was that Andy. Then, on Monday, she was wearing his hoodie. I kinda wanted to scream in the middle of the hallway. Melissa was one of my closest friends, she was one of the people who encouraged me to tell Andy I like him. She was pushing us closer, she was so happy for Andy and I. 
     And before you people who like to attack me for how I feel. I cannot choose how I feel because I'm human. And if I did have the choice to choose how I feel, I would choose to be happy for both of them. But, She broke girl code. For those of you who don't know what girl code i'm talking about. Girl Code: Friends are not allowed to date guys/girls that their friends have liked or dated. 
(Edit: Yo guys, Andy and Melissa broke up like after 5 days lmaaaaooo)
     So, on Wednesday (08/16/17) I went to the eye doctor I got my eyes dilated. Honestly, such a weird experience, three different drops go in your eyes. After, I got my blood drawn to test for Thyroid disease, yippee! I absolutely HATE needles. I flinched and they missed my vein but they didn't need to re-poke. The doctor pushed it around in my arm to get my vein. When it finally got in there, I like cringed really hard because it felt like a bubble popping.
     Today in Geometry, I was absent from school yesterday, which meant I had time to do my homework. I didn't understand my homework and so it made me nervous to give him my homework FULL of guesses. Lmaooo. 

That's my post for today, ahaha! 
         Best Wishes Babies,
                                         Via B.